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Jun. 28th, 2017 04:57 pm
tara: (TOS: Kirk has a gun and tight trousers)
It's all very well saying, "I shall update at least weekly!" The trouble is finding something interesting to talk about when your life is all PhD research and house hunting. We're still awaiting the s32 for the flat I talked about last week, and nothing else interesting has come on the market. I know that winter is traditionally a slow time for real estate, but it really sucks when you're desperate to buy.

I spent last night in Warragul with Mum and Tricky. When I got there, they weren't speaking to each other after a very barky morning ;) When Mum is cross with him, Trick always sits by me with a look of "See, Tara's not mad" on his face, which is very manipulative of him and very smart :D

I have been enjoying being back playing Dragon Age. I'm not loving aggressive Hawke and am very glad that I'm playing a female character for this run-through because I have issues with aggressive men and really don't want to be playing one. Still, I want to try all of the personality types once and I shall play sarcastic Hawke forever once this run-through is done. I have definitely decided to romance Merrill, because she just works better with this Hawke, although there is zero sign of Hawke getting anywhere with that yet and I'm about a third of the way through act two. It's very different to romancing Anders, who basically throws himself at you, or Fenris, where there are heaps of flirt options to choose. Still, Merrill has the best accent of the lot of them, so she's worth a little more work ;P I feel very accomplished because I already have Fenris at 100% friendship, which is no mean feat when you're playing an aggressively pro-mage run with a blood mage Hawke :D

I'm also watching quite a bit of The Bill right now, because it's like a warm blankie to me. I've watched through s1-3 and started on s4 last night. I am a bit sad at the moment because s4 means no more Galloway and he's one of my favourites. Oh well, eventually he will be reborn as John Boulton... and then messed up by the dreadful character changes at the end of his run.

We're also watching Next Gen s3 together at the moment, so I have lots of special interest support right now at least :)

Beeeeeees

Jun. 21st, 2017 05:04 pm
tara: (Marvel: Pietro Son of M)
So the place I spoke about last entry? Turns out it was completely full of bees. Bees that were on fire. At least four different types of building defect, including sub standard fire safety, which was an excellent thing to read (not) just after the awful tower block fire in London. Despite this, we put in a low offer, which allowed for us to set aside lots of money for upcoming levies, and this was rejected. I am kind of glad of this, because I have never seen a property with so many bees, but E is sad because she really loved the place. And it was a very nice place. We just probably would've burnt to death in it after it fell on top of us and crushed us.

There's another place that we saw last weekend that I think would be a very sensible option. It is not our dream home but, let's face it, we're never going to get that for our bottom-of-the-market budget anyway. It is significantly below budget, and it's right near a train station (and a LIBRARY) and only a few years old so, apart from the defects that go hand-in-hand with any Australian property built after about 2000, we shouldn't have to do a damn thing to it. Worst issue is that it's up 2 flights of stairs, which my body will hate, but it has a sexy kitchen, which should partially make up for that ;p So now we're waiting on the s32 for that property. E is not particularly enthused about it, but I am quite enthused about the extra disposable income that we'd have with half the mortgage we'd get if it were top of budget ;)

I'm still in at PROV three days a week and it's a hard slog, because there's a lot of boring stuff and squinting at awful handwriting to get at the occasional interesting story. But the Ritalin helps and so does playing music through headphones, which also blocks out the noise of the other people there. I need to fiddle with my website to add a research section and hopefully start to post some interesting stories there, because there's a huge emphasis on an online presence these days for academics. To that end, I've also separated out a private twitter because my nonsense about TV shows is probably best kept away from my so-called professional twitter.

Stayed in Warragul last night, so I had my mum-and-Tricky time which was nice. Tricky is a very old boy now so I am trying to get as many Tricky cuddles in as possible these days. I love him so much.

In excellent news, I have just started a new game of Dragon Age 2, my first with a female Hawke. I am also playing as a mage and as an aggressive Hawke for the first time. Not sure yet whether I'll be romancing Isabella or Merril - will depend which works better with my Hawke. Will romance the other one next time anyway :D

Speaking of Dragon Age, it was our first wedding anniversary on Saturday and E got me the Dragon Age tarot cards I have been coveting enormously forever. I have zero idea how to read tarot but the art is incredible and I like the idea of learning how to read the cards because I think they're a great way to tap into your subconscious and help direct your thoughts for decision making. So that will be an upcoming project. The cards are v v pretty, as is my wife. I very much like being married to her :)

Oh! And on Saturday night we saw Revolt. She Said. Revolt Again. at the Malty. I got the tickets for E's Christmas present and it wasn't an excellent choice given that we both liked the beginning and then liked it less and less as it went on, but it's always nice to see theatre even if it's not 100% yay.
My resolution to journal more and keep up with DW has not been going so well, thanks to house hunting taking up all of my energy and brain space. However, I have been told (more later) that I should really be going back to regularly journaling as a way of sorting out my thoughts and decisions so I will try harder to do so from now on.

Firstly, house stuff: Oh god I am so over it already. I can't handle real estate agents and not knowing where I am going to end up and it is all just so stressful and terrible and ugh. There is a place we really want, though, and we're waiting on a section 32 to make sure it isn't "full of bees" as E puts it, and then we will send things off to our lawyer and make an offer and hopefully they accept it and all this can be OVER. That said, we're still waiting on mortgage pre-approval so that is also a thing. I do not like house hunting. I do not like it at all.

Secondly, this isn't something that I have told many people about (um, three, other than E and Mum, I think) but I had an autism assessment a few weeks ago. Basically, this year I have put a focus on Getting My Shit Sorted as much as possible, hence the ADHD assessment a while back and now the autism assessment. The latter was v.expensive, which is why it took so long, but I ended up using all my savings on it (and some credit card cough) because I just wanted to know finally, one way or another. Anyway, it turns out that I am a total Aspie (not that they use that term officially any more) and I am so autistic that she wasn't sure whether I was level 1 or 2 and she's pretty sure I'd be 2 if it weren't for Mum and E basically helping me to be more 'normal' ;p One of the things I was worried about with getting assessed was that it would end up being a borderline call, so I'm rather glad that it ended up being a very clear cut case.

So basically a lot of the things that I have always struggled with and done wrong are because I am autistic, not because I am evil. That will take a long time to come to terms with, but I'm hoping this diagnosis will eventually help me to hate myself a little less.

The psychologist agrees that I have co-morbid ADHD, but thinks that the bipolar is actually just autism. That makes sense to me, and the important thing is that the bipolar meds help me, not what they are prescribed to help.

The journalling thing is something she recommended to help me become a little more mentally independent from Mum. The best thing, though, is that she said that my special interests are therapy, and that I should make sure I spend time engaging in them. I currently feel so guilty when I do the things I really love, even though I know that my mental health is 1000 times better when I allow myself to indulge in my comfort stuff, so it's nice to be told that I have to watch Britcom or play Dragon Age or whatever.

I'm probably going to have a few further sessions to help me with emotion regulation, but I can't deal with that while house hunting is going on, so I'll arrange it later.

So yes, that's my big news.

Topic!

May. 1st, 2017 09:49 pm
tara: (TOS: Kirk Spock & Bones confer)
So I think I have a firm, specific PhD topic! I shall confirm when I see my supervisor in person on Wednesday (and I finally AM meeting her in person), but both supervisor and co-supervisor said that it looked good in email form, so fingers crossed. If all is well, I shall be looking at female agency in the discharge process from Victorian asylums, 1880-1910. Ish. One of the reasons I've chosen this topic is that it's extremely scaleable, and the dates at the moment are only there as a guideline to the records I'm going to be looking at. I'll work out a final date range once I have a better idea of what's on file; I want to include the most useful records.

I have been creating a database (and learning how to use Access in the process) ready to house all the different sets of demographic information contained in the various case-records. I don't know what of that I'll end up using, but better to deal with these things once, instead of having to endlessly re-copy material and spending ten times as much time at PROV as I really need to.

In other news, E's flat sold on Saturday, so it's on to the next step of investigating a home loan. This is exceedingly adult for someone like myself who is permanently stuck at a maturity of about thirteen.
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